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Hello Everyone

This will be my weight loss adventure blog. I have been thinking about having a blog for a long time. But I could not decide what it will be about. I decided that it should be the blog of my life. So, most important matter in my life right now is my weight loss struggle. That’s why I named is as weight loss adventure blog.:)

I was a chubby girl since I remember myself. now I am more than chubby girl, I am morbid obese. It is difficult to confess to myself but I am morbid obese. I knew that I was obese and accepted this truth. But being morbid, and having out of control weight issue; is not something I could accept very easily. Being morbid obese is not something really bad however it is not something I want to be. So I need to take the control in my hand.

I am very control freak person. I have a very good job. I am director of a very well-known company in its sector. I am successful. I have been in control almost every part of my life(except my weight) However I am total failure at controlling my weight. But I want to change this fact.

Last time I was able to control at my weight, was right before my wedding. After we got married, I start to lost control. Actually I was in control of my weight during my pregnancy. I have not even put a one kg thru my pregnancy. I gave a birth at the same weight, I was conceived.

Now my baby is 7 months old. She quit breastfeeding and unfortunately I am back to my weight right before my pregnancy.

I was 141kg when I was conceived. My highest weight is 147,8.(4 months before my pregnancy).134kg a month after my baby born. Last Tuesday(6^th march), I was weighted 143,8kg.(1kg is 2.2lb, so 316lb)

When my baby quit breast feeding, I have decided to do something about my weight. I have done several diets. Mostly yoyo diets. Give 15-20kg, and take back all of them plus 4-5kg. I am aware that I need to change this pattern and I should do a permanent change in my life. Because I have a baby who will be walking in 3-4 months. She deserves a mother who can run after her, play with her without getting tired. I want to be a mother who could be a good role model to my daughter.

Even I am obese, I am very healthy person. I don’t want my baby girl get the idea that being obese is okey, obese people can be healthy. I know obese can be healthy but thru their teenage lie, being obese is very difficult, and even their body is healthy, their soul may be damaged. Mine was like that. So I would like to set a role model to my daughter is being health and being fit will help her live more quality life.

I have been researching bariatric surgery for weight loss. I have examined the lab band, gastric bypass, gastric sleeve and gastric sleeve plication.

I believe that universe send me some signs. Since I am thinking about weight loss surgery (wls), I come across with interview of people who had wls. Last sign was one of my Facebook friend had an operation and she has put her hospital time picture.

That weekend I saw a dream about doing something about my weight. So I have contacted with her and get her doctors name on monday. I knew her thru my reiki group but we never met in person. Even we don’t know each other, she was very helpful. She gave me a huge courage. I was so happy to know someone who has been go thru almost same struggle I am going thru.

After my talk with her, I start to do more intensive research about gastric sleeve operation and her doctor at the internet. Finally I got the courage and I gave a call to the doctor. He was very polite and helpful. He said that I can come over to the hospital tomorrow morning to talk further.

Now it was time to share this info with my husband. Even I will be having this operation; I will need a huge support from my husband. Because we live at the same house and we share a life together.

(my visit and further info is tomorrow)