operation is postpone till end of may:(

Well, I went to doctor on Monday and I check in to hospital on Tuesday for all the checkups. I was so excited that I would have my operation next week. However there were some fall backs. Hospital did not have the staples for the operation. With the new procedures, they order after a patient is approved. I know this is not any bodies fault however I felt so bad.

So, if they order the staple cartridge for me, I can have my operation mid-late April. But then my recovery time will fall on the fair I should be attending. 1-19May, I will be at Germany for the big exhibition. So I have to choose one of them. I have talked with my doctor and we will plan the operation after my travel. It is one way better; I will not be stressed thru my recovery time. But it is bad; I will lose these weights late.

Actually I am still on pre operation diet. As my doctor says “meat and vegie” diet. I feel like if I quit the diet, I will lose the motivation of losing weight. I have lost 1 more kg. so now I have lost almost 8kgs.I am planning to continue to this diet till end of may. I hope to lose at least 8-10kgs.

So this is the last update of my situation.

26th March 2012

Today is the big day.26^thof March. I had my doctor appointment. I have woke up this morning with butterflies at my stomach. I woke up and I have weighted. I weighted 137,2kg. that means, I have lost 6,5 kg in 3 weeks. It is not a lot but better than poke in eye.

I was feeling great. I went to my closet and check for skirt. I think I have not wear any skirts for couple years. I have worn my nice leaf designed shirt with black body and brown cardigan. Also I have put new cloths on my baby girl. I wanted to be fancy today.

Well we went to hospital. Doctor was in exam. MY Facebook friend was there, we have chat little bit. Then she has entered to doctor’s office. After her it was my turn. Doctor said that 6,5 kg is good weight. So tell me what you want. I said I want to go with it. So I will be go into hospital tomorrow. I think I will stay there for 3-4 days for all the exams. I am hoping to stay for 2 days but we will see. I still have some work to take care before operation.

If all the results come up well, I will have my operation next week. Cross your fingers please:)

what I have done last week

It has been almost a week that I have not written. This does not mean that I forgot, I was just too busy last week with taking care my baby girl and my business.

Sometimes it is unbelievable, how 7months old baby can suck up all your energy. When I put her sleep around 8 o’clock, I am totally exhausted. Every night I tell my sell, if you were not this big, you could do more job and you would not get tired. It sound like complaint but it is more like motivation to me. Because I need to take care my body to be more health and be there for my baby girl.

I have been eating very fine this week. I have stuck to my diet very well. Actually if there are no advertisements on the road, I don’t think I won’t even think about food. But these ads are killing me. I am very visual person and when I saw great hamburger with nice sauce, I think about going and eat. I think they need to ban the food ads.

Last week I decided to get a new scale. I used to use Tanita at my dietician office but I don’t want to go there to have my fat, muscle and water calculated. So I purchased second hand tanita to my home. I have to write the information down to a paper, this way I can see what I have done.

Last week I only lost 2kg. I don’t eat a lot but I think my body don’t want to give  up all nice fat friendsJ

addition to my life

Let me tell you what I have done after I decide to have an operation. First of all I still don’t know will my doctor operate me. My doctor appointment is on 26^th march. I hope to lose some weight to convince him. Actually I have learnt that a pre-operation diet helps the decrease the fat around the liver and it will be big help at the operation. Also it is a self-check for the patient about what she can do after operation. Even I have this info; I still need to convince my doctor for the operation.

In Turkey, if you have bmi40 and more and the university hospital consultant commission approves your operation, government take cares the operation costs. So after my doctor says yes, I need to go thru checkup thru endocrine, psychiatry, cardiology, internal medicine, pulmonary department. If they approved that I can have operation, than commission will make a decision. After their decision, I can have the operation.

I may have the operation thru private surgeon at private hospital. However I prefer to be in university hospital if anything bad happens.

I don’t want to worry about this right now. I have almost 2 weeks till 26^th and I want to change my eating habits and try to add some exercise in my life. I hope I get the operation, if not that will not be the end of life (even I will be very disappointed) I will seek different ways.

I have started the post with what I have done since I have decided to lose weight. Beside those things already written, I have calculated my bmi goals. What bmi I am already, what it should be.

max	min
130 kg	+	Morbid Obesity	40 or greater
129 kg	114 kg	Obesity (Class 2)	35 to 39.99
113 kg	98 kg	Obesity (Class 1)	30 to 34.99
97 kg	81 kg	Overweight	25 to 29.99
80 kg	60 kg	Normal Weight	18.5 to 24.99
59 kg	-	Underweight	18.5 or less

So with my weight of today (140.8kg) I am morbid obese.

I have stop worried about my situation. Now I have my own goals. First I need to reach 129kg to be class 2 obeseJ

Beside this calculation, I have found a book called weight loss surgery cook book for dummies. I think it will help me out if I get the operation.

Also I decide to add some exercise to my life. At my research even 10minutes of exercise will help to improve life quality. It is very tireding to do exercise while you have too much excess weight. There is a fitness system called P90x. it seems like great system but I am not sure will I continue 90days. At the site there is a shorter version. P90 10minute trainer. I may try to get this one.

Also there is 10minute training of biggest looser program (full name is The Biggest Loser 30-Day Jump Start DVD. That may also work. Because it is tested by morbid obese people and they did great at the end.

So after I get a hold on any of this dvds I will add some work out to my daily routine. (I will give you the feedback about them) till than I add some walking to my daily routine. 

Why I have a blog

Since I have decided to get in shape and be healthier, I am looking into my pattern. I always have great encourage but then I give up at the plaque part.

So this time, I want to have a record of what I have been thru. Why I am doing it. Knowing it is not always remembering it. So I want to have a record why, how, what I am doing it. If I ever quit, I will come back and reread this.

I am very encouraged about this operation and being healthy because of the messages I have read at the forums. I think I have not mentioned to you, I am Turkish. I have lived in United States for 6 years. Then I moved back home (after sept.11) I prefer to write this blog in English because expressing my feelings are more easy in English.

I have done the weight loss avatar at http://www.onestopplus.com site. After I have created the model, I have print screen it and crop it. So you can imagine your future look by this 3d modeling. It is very motivating.

I want to talk about the forums I have read before I have decided to have the operation.

http://www.kelepceliyiz.net/forum/     Turkish

http://www.kelepcekardesligi.com/     Turkish

http://medicorium.com/forum/            Turkish

http://www.verticalsleevetalk.com/     English

http://www.obesityhelp.com/forums/VSG/     English

http://www.thinnertimesforum.com/forum/115-vertical-sleeve-gastrectomy-forums/          English

http://www.experienceproject.com/groups/Had-Vertical-Sleeve-Gastrectomy-Weight-Loss-Surgery/245185             English

http://www.obesitydiscussion.com/forums/obesity-surgery/vertical-sleeve-surgery-5917.html        English

http://www.gastricsleevesupport.com/           English

anyone who wants to have bariatric operation should visit and read the disadvantages, side effects and advantage of the operation. I will give more information about the operation later in week. But I can say that I have decided on gastric sleeve due the below video. Dr.Alvarez is one of the most known surgeons in North America.

My doctor visit

At my last post, I was telling you that I had to share this with my husband. I am very lucky girl, he is very supportive. He said that if it is what you want I will be there for you. I knew about it but I wanted to hear from him.:)

So he and my daughter, we went to the doctor next morning. Our appointment was at 9am, but we were at the hospital at 8:20. I could not sleep at night. Even I am a big morning sleeper, I was up that morning very early.

First of all doctor (prof) was very nice and kind. We took our daughter. She was very curious cat and tried to look into all the closed things (windows boxesJ)

He took some information about me and told me that he does not do lap band. He is only doing gastric sleeve for last 2,5 years. Than it came to the point he asked about my diet. What I eat. I am a big carb eater. I love bread, pizza, pasta etc. then his second bomb came. “If you don’t quit this eating habit, this operation will not work for you. So you better forget them. Also you need to think about what you want, what you can do.”

I knew that I should not eat them after operation but hearing from him was harsh. Than third bomb came; “I don’t do operations to everyone. I need you to do 2-3 weeks diet, than we will discuss what we can do. I need to see what you will be done” this was a shock to me because, I did not read any pre operation diet at Turkish forums and my friend did not mentioned it. I was more likely thinking that I would have the test done that week and have the operation next week.

While I was surprised, I listen my pre operation diet little bit mistakenly.

My diet rule are, no bread, nothing from flour. Only protein. No egg yolk. Only white part. Salad and veggies.

Actually dieting is not the hard part, most difficult part is liquid intake. As a diet, I should stop taking in any liquids 30 minutes before meal. And no liquid till 90minues later. It is more like no liquid for 120-140minutes. No soup, no water at the meal.

The funny part it I have understood these 30 minutes as 2hour. So I had 4,5 hour no liquid for 3-4 days. When I realize that there is something wrong at this, I have message the doctor from facebook about it. I am sure he has laughed a lot, but he corrected meJ it seems like I was living my disappointment while he was telling my diet.

Now I am in better shape with liquid thing. The reason of no liquid is, liquid soften the food in stomach, and it leave the stomach faster. so you start to get hungry more quickly. Worst part of this liquid diet, I am missing soup which I was having every lunch. Best part is I don’t have several meals; I only have 2-3 meals. Funny part is, I don’t get hungry if I don’t eat any carbs. If I have some during the day, than I am crazy after 4-5pm.

So far, I started the dieting the day I went to the doctor. I had weighted (143,8kg=316lb) that morning and I did not have breakfast. I did really good that day till at night. At night I had a huge carb-crise. So that day was not my best, next morning I was weighted 144,8kg) that moment, I told myself, I should stop doing this myself, I should be respecting my body. I have been doing great since Wednesday.(way better after the pre-meal timing correction)

Today is 13^th. 7^th day. My weight is 140,8kg. So I have lost 3kg/6,5lb. There is no change at my body look, but I know that my stomach get smaller. When I look down, I only saw my breast and tummy. It was before only breast and stomach. I am apple shape person. Even I lose a lot of weight, difference on my hip; is smaller than any apple shape person lose weight.

Welcome to my blog

Hello Everyone

This will be my weight loss adventure blog. I have been thinking about having a blog for a long time. But I could not decide what it will be about. I decided that it should be the blog of my life. So, most important matter in my life right now is my weight loss struggle. That’s why I named is as weight loss adventure blog.:)

I was a chubby girl since I remember myself. now I am more than chubby girl, I am morbid obese. It is difficult to confess to myself but I am morbid obese. I knew that I was obese and accepted this truth. But being morbid, and having out of control weight issue; is not something I could accept very easily. Being morbid obese is not something really bad however it is not something I want to be. So I need to take the control in my hand.

I am very control freak person. I have a very good job. I am director of a very well-known company in its sector. I am successful. I have been in control almost every part of my life(except my weight) However I am total failure at controlling my weight. But I want to change this fact.

Last time I was able to control at my weight, was right before my wedding. After we got married, I start to lost control. Actually I was in control of my weight during my pregnancy. I have not even put a one kg thru my pregnancy. I gave a birth at the same weight, I was conceived.

Now my baby is 7 months old. She quit breastfeeding and unfortunately I am back to my weight right before my pregnancy.

I was 141kg when I was conceived. My highest weight is 147,8.(4 months before my pregnancy).134kg a month after my baby born. Last Tuesday(6^th march), I was weighted 143,8kg.(1kg is 2.2lb, so 316lb)

When my baby quit breast feeding, I have decided to do something about my weight. I have done several diets. Mostly yoyo diets. Give 15-20kg, and take back all of them plus 4-5kg. I am aware that I need to change this pattern and I should do a permanent change in my life. Because I have a baby who will be walking in 3-4 months. She deserves a mother who can run after her, play with her without getting tired. I want to be a mother who could be a good role model to my daughter.

Even I am obese, I am very healthy person. I don’t want my baby girl get the idea that being obese is okey, obese people can be healthy. I know obese can be healthy but thru their teenage lie, being obese is very difficult, and even their body is healthy, their soul may be damaged. Mine was like that. So I would like to set a role model to my daughter is being health and being fit will help her live more quality life.

I have been researching bariatric surgery for weight loss. I have examined the lab band, gastric bypass, gastric sleeve and gastric sleeve plication.

I believe that universe send me some signs. Since I am thinking about weight loss surgery (wls), I come across with interview of people who had wls. Last sign was one of my Facebook friend had an operation and she has put her hospital time picture.

That weekend I saw a dream about doing something about my weight. So I have contacted with her and get her doctors name on monday. I knew her thru my reiki group but we never met in person. Even we don’t know each other, she was very helpful. She gave me a huge courage. I was so happy to know someone who has been go thru almost same struggle I am going thru.

After my talk with her, I start to do more intensive research about gastric sleeve operation and her doctor at the internet. Finally I got the courage and I gave a call to the doctor. He was very polite and helpful. He said that I can come over to the hospital tomorrow morning to talk further.

Now it was time to share this info with my husband. Even I will be having this operation; I will need a huge support from my husband. Because we live at the same house and we share a life together.

(my visit and further info is tomorrow)